[From the AMacD- notebooks, Volume 3, decrypted passages]
The most curious event this morn, when I went to visit Clorinda and unfold to her my concerns around M. She listened to me with all sobriety for a while but eventually was overtaken by quite a paroxysm of mirth, quite unlike the dainty laughter she will normally manifest, bringing a flush to her cheek &C. Sure I have ever considered my disposition to be as firmly set and unchanging as the colour of my hair or the weakness of sight that necessitates my wearing of spectacles; and yet, as she laughed so heartily, felt the most distinct signs of desire even unto stirring of the m. v. I have been greatly missing dear G while he must be about the duties of his station at A-; but I would not have supposed that that would incline me in this direction. I said nothing, of course: doubtless had I done so she would have made allusions to love in idleness or fateful philtres; or perchance renewed that kind offer she made on that occasion in Surrey: but my sensations had nothing of the philosophical and scientific about them.
Great relief on discovering that my recent unwonted sensations concerning Clorinda must have been some passing frenzy. Able to feel quite entirely on our usual terms when I visit her. Only wish that I might disclose this strange vagary to her, for I daresay, with her knowledge of the phenomena of desire, she might have some thoughts upon the matter. Perchance as students of psychology suggest, some forgotten association brings it about?